From Tender, stories that lean into kindness

Photo: Ian Ferguson

Before Good Friday

A few years ago, just before Easter, I pulled into the supermarket car park. It was mid-afternoon on Maundy Thursday, the day before Good Friday. I had been stuck in a one-way back street behind a truck revving impatiently. It was not the ideal lead-up to my observance of Easter.

Through my car radio came the mellifluous tones of Lucky Oceans’ afternoon show on Radio National. Lucky introduced an album by Sam Baker called Pretty World. The back-story is that Baker was in Peru in 1986 on a train blown up by the Shining Path Maoist group. He was forced to witness the death of a 14-year-old boy beside him. His own permanent injuries meant re-learning the guitar, so he could fret with his right hand. Brain damage resulting from the injuries meant he had to ‘go picking for words like you’d pick fruit in an orchard’.

All of this is present in his song ‘Broken Fingers’. There is a certain heaviness in the emphasis and pronunciation, the words don’t come easily. You can tell they are sung by a man who has to hunt for words. Sam Baker was surrounded by a crew of supporting artists, friends willing him into making his music again. The album is his tribute. It invokes the memory of the boy and names Baker’s own loss. The lyrics are simple and eloquent.

These broken fingers
            some things don’t heal
            you can’t wake up from the dream
            when you know the dream is real.

Sam Baker’s song takes hold of me. Suddenly I am weeping in the supermarket car park. Some things don’t heal. There is a respectful knowing that doesn’t try to force healing or hope on people. I do the shopping slowly, with a new sense of gratitude.

In my childhood I periodically heard preachers insisting on a kind of victorious Christianity. As if barracking for Jesus put you on the winning team where nothing could touch you. It felt like denial.

In the evening, I participate in the foot-washing ritual our church holds every Maundy Thursday. The night recalls the Last Supper when Jesus washed the feet of the disciples. Later that same night, in the Garden of Gethsemane, they abandoned him.

Prayers are spoken by candlelight in the darkened church. I am offered water for my feet, and fragrant oils, then towels to enfold them. I am offered wine to drink and bread to eat. In the quiet darkness I remember people who carry wounds that don’t heal.

This story appears in the section 'non-anxious presence' 
in my book Tender, stories that lean into kindness.
You can find Tender at St Peter's Bookroom,
Central Catholic Bookshop and through the publisher MediaCom

3 thoughts on “a story for Maundy Thursday”

  1. Thanks for your words on Maundy Thursday, Julie.
    Do you know Denise Levertov’s rather long poem ‘Feet’? In Part VI she talks about the foot washing ceremony of Maundy Thursday; this ‘humble ritual, so ancient’ having us think of the dusty, dirty feet of the first apostles, and now ‘old winos stumbling along’ and ‘anyone homeless, who has to keep moving along all day’ – this act of pouring water over feet becomes that service which gives a chance for those who suffer a chance to ‘bathe their blisters.’
    Carol

    1. I love the work of Denise Levertov. I’ve also just finished Kathleen Norris’s ‘Dakota” where she talks about hosting a dance company for meals at her place whilst they were touring the schools. There is a dinner where they talk about feet and end up baring their feet and placing them on the table. She talks about the hospitality of the ‘lowly foot’.

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